MY family and a half

holy wow.
lots has happened.
so with my dad being married, that has been really hectic.
two new step sisters, and a new step mom,
and lots of changes.
first of which is, we are not allowed to say the word "step"
in our house.
MY dad said that it was because it divided the family. but what if i want
the family divided. what if i want to keep MY family and THIER family seperate?
uuurrrrh.
another change, is that STEP mom, is being addressed as MOM. but more
importantly, MY dad, is being addressesd as dad. by MY family and THEIR family alike.
and i know i shouldnt care, but the truth is... is that i do.
i care a whole freaking lot. this is MY family they are messing with.
MINE. and they keep wanting to take that away from me! why cant we just keep it
the way it was?!?!
why cant we just take away my new half family, and keep it the way it should be?!?!
i want my family back!
but i couldnt tell any of this to my new parents, because my dad would get
mad at me, and my new STEP mom would tell him anyway.
im just so confused. i dont know what to do or think anymore.
any of you guys want to switch lives?!?!

ok. even more big news. my dad got married after two weeks of engagement.
he decided to get a cival marriage first and get sealed later.
he says it is better that way. o well.
so i now officially have two new evil step sisters, and a step mom.
a really wierd consept.
but whatever, this is my dad's life, and i need to let him live it.
in other news, jordan is out, and brayden is in.
so that is it.
i will update later when mirae isnt reading this.
bi!!!

big news!!!

hey yall.
so big news. my dad proposed.
thursday night. my dad and his girlfriend are engaged.
[big shocker] i dont exactly know how i feel about that at
the moment, but i think im doing ok with it. i just strongly dislike
her two girls. emphasize on strongly. they drive to the point of madness.
they have already started calling MY dad, dad. im not going to lie. that hurts.
but my dad, being his usual self, doesnt give a rat's fart. but o well. what are you
going to do about it? all i can really do is sit here, and pretend that my life is normal. trying to avoid the enivatable stabbing pain that comes when i do think about it. so anyway, that is basically it. and oh ya, my birthday was exactly a week from yesterday!!! yay me!!! so
that is all from me!
love yall
love/Mikelle

hey guys!!!
it's mikelle [suprize]
ya. things have definatly simmered down a lot.
my book is going well [but long]
and my family is doing better. p.s. if i know you,
PLEASE DONT TELL ANYONE ONE ABOUT MY LAST COMMENT!!!
apperently i wasnt supposed to say that.
OOPS!
so anyway, things are going good, and my birthday is
in less than 2 weeks!!!
i really like this one guy named "jordan" and
"TJ" is being wierd.
mirae is doing fantabulous, and had DEFINATLY had
an amazing impact upon her "friends" she is slowly
but surely turning back into the mirae, that i love.
my dad's girlfriend, is good, and her two girls
are just as annoying as usual. My mom is doing amazing
and is absolutly loving the single life. i cant wait for my birthday.
when i hit July !2 a whole new realm of life opens uplol.
well that is all i can think of to write! thanks for reading
*kiss kiss* love you all!
love/Mikelle

anger

hey all you dudes and dudetts. its mikelle here.
so things have been a little wierd around here. so that girl that my dad is dating, well they are getting pretty flippen serious, and it has been extremely wierd because she has been practically living here! well... let me explain, so my grandma usually whatches the sib's during the day. but last week, she went on a vacation, jess, [dad's girlfriend] whatched the sib's.aka siblings.
so on sunday, my dad brought me into his office, and told me that he is going ring shopping!!!
HE IS GOING TO PROPOSE!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIRMP!!!
my jaw dropped.
so because of this, he said that she is going to be whatching us during the day, so we can get used to her "motheringness"
nobody else in the world knows about this yet. all of the kids think that it is because dear old gram gram cant do it anymore.
it really pisses me off!
now dont get me wrong. i love jess. but i dont think im ready for this yet!!!
i mean, ever since he told me, i dont see them the same anymore. i see them, as my wierd stupid not-at-all put together family!!!
i dont even like her two daughters. of course i pretend to like them, but i really dont!
they are annoying stupid kids!!!
i hate living here! im so sick of being ignored.
yep.
while dad is off making out with jess, he doesnt even realize the damage he is causing to my little broken heart.
im just shoved aside like a broken lamp. and my friends are off having the time of there lives with there perfect little families.
it makes me furious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to be noticed!!! i want to be treated like his daughter. not just a burden. im not just a broken lamp!!!
why cant he get that.
i have had the hardest life, and he doesnt even care. he cares more about his stupid girlfriend, than his daughter that actually NEEDS his love, attention, and devotion.
he doesnt even care or even know how bad he is hurting me!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh.
those two stupid girls!!! i hate um!!! they are whiny, crying babies!!!
and as for jess, she is cool, but she is always around my stupid retarted father.
i want to move out!!!
if any of you have a place i can stay, please call!!! i just cant help but be angry!!!
i know that there isnt really anything to be angry about, but... just... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh!
everything is just crashing down on me, and i cant stop them from coming.

well anyway, on that happy note...
that is all from me for a while
love/mikelle

family

hey yall.
it's mikelle.
so nothing has really happend.
well sort of, so i was going to write this book. and it was going well, but then i realized that i didnt like the plot at all!!!
so i totally changed it. a whole lot. so now it is about something totally different. and i only have a pg. and 1/2 done, but it is coming, and im really excited!
and another thing, my dad and my dad's girlfriend. i havent talked much about her. her name is Jesslyn, and she is FLIPPEN AMAZING!!! and my dad and her, are getting pretty serious. headed for marriage serious. i dont have a problem with that at all. it is just i dont like her girls much. she has two little girls. they are cute, but they arent my sisters. at all. actually, they can be pretty annoying. im used to my mom being replaced my nannies, but not my sisters. i just dont really like them at all. that is the only problem i have with them getting married. but i love Jesslyn sooooooo much. she is the sweetest cutest person ever! i can talk to her about anything. she is like my best friend. she is entirly supportive. she is basically all my dad isnt, and more. i love her a ton.
my dad says that i wouldnt have to share a room with the two twirps,,,, but my dad never has been totally honest with me. actually, i really dont like my dad at all1
in fact, i hate him.
He never gets it. he is not the only one in this world. he thinks that everyone revolvs around him. he never pays attention to anybody else. especially me.
he hates that im like my mom. he hates that i remind him of her.
he just doesnt get it. with every glance, he doesnt give me, he is tearing out a piece of my heart. :(
He just thinks that i am an annoyance. and that is the worst way to break someones heart.
well that is all for now. thanx for reading.
love/Mikelle

Friends/party

hey yall
its belle. sorry i have written so much lately. lots has happend.
so lastnight was the party i was talking about.
first we walked from school to his house.
it was about an hour walk. but it was so beautiful. There was this beautiful little grove of tree's with a tiny clearing. we took the most amazing group pictures.
then we came to a little lake. with trees surrounding it, and benches and the whole cabootle. It was so beautiful!
Me, Keri [My bestest friend EVER!!! we call eachother sisters], and Mckenzie [the boy i like] were fantasizing about romantic scenes in thise places. THEY WERE ABSOLUTLY THE MOST ROMANTIC THINGS I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!
but it only made me sad, because i knew that Mckenzie, was imaginaing them, with Sydney [ my best friend, whom mckenzie likes]. so i was really sad.
but as usual i put on my mask and pretended to be happy.
so after that, we got to his house, and got in the swimming pool. It was so much fun. Except for Jordan. he has liked me FOREVER!!! well, actually, he has liked me AND my friend forever. see what happend, was, he liked keri first. but then, she didnt like him. so he liked me. but then i didnt like him anymore, so he went back to keri. then she broke it off, and he went back to me. by this time, i was pretty pissed off. He was only bouncing from me to keri! He even told me, as long as he had someone to hold, he was fine. SHALLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so he is a shallow retard, and i have banned him from hugs, dancing, etc.
he is making me soooooooo mad!!!
but anyway, he was being an idiot at the pool, and i avoided him the whole time.
But Mckenzie was being positivly, amazing!!!
But there was also Tj. i forgot to tell you about him.
so at the beginning of the year, we went out for a long time.
but after about 6 months, i broke it off. i didnt like him anymore. so then he went out with 5 of my other friends. after doing this he told me that he never actually stopped liking me. and he was just trying to repair the hole in his heart. [idiot]
but i didnt like him. but he just didnt be able to seem to grasp that concept.
so finally he went out with another girl.
then the day b4 the party, he told me that he liked me again. i told him that i didnt, but then he asked me out.
idiot!!!
so i told him, no.
but at the party, he kept hanging around me, and being really wierd.
so anyway, then we got out of the pool, and snacked and listend to music.
Tj just had to sit my me, and Mckenzie just had to sit somewhere else.
so after we were done eating, we all went down and played a game.
while we were doing so, i got to sit by mckenzie!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but Tj, was passing me a note sayings things like " i keep looking in your eyes. they are beautiful"
hello dude?!?!?!!? I DO NOT LIKE YOU!!! GET OVER IT!!!
so then, after we all left, we were gone for 5 mintues. and he called my friend.
and asked to talk to me!!!!
he said that he missed me and he was going crazy.
HELLO DUDE?!?!?! GET A GRIP!!!
but anyway, we drove away, and that was the last i saw mckenzie. until next year.
dang.
but anyway, that is my guy problem, and the party stuff.
sorry if you fell asleep. my life is pretty lame.
thanx for reading.
ttyl
love/Mikelle