MY family and a half

holy wow.
lots has happened.
so with my dad being married, that has been really hectic.
two new step sisters, and a new step mom,
and lots of changes.
first of which is, we are not allowed to say the word "step"
in our house.
MY dad said that it was because it divided the family. but what if i want
the family divided. what if i want to keep MY family and THIER family seperate?
uuurrrrh.
another change, is that STEP mom, is being addressed as MOM. but more
importantly, MY dad, is being addressesd as dad. by MY family and THEIR family alike.
and i know i shouldnt care, but the truth is... is that i do.
i care a whole freaking lot. this is MY family they are messing with.
MINE. and they keep wanting to take that away from me! why cant we just keep it
the way it was?!?!
why cant we just take away my new half family, and keep it the way it should be?!?!
i want my family back!
but i couldnt tell any of this to my new parents, because my dad would get
mad at me, and my new STEP mom would tell him anyway.
im just so confused. i dont know what to do or think anymore.
any of you guys want to switch lives?!?!

ok. even more big news. my dad got married after two weeks of engagement.
he decided to get a cival marriage first and get sealed later.
he says it is better that way. o well.
so i now officially have two new evil step sisters, and a step mom.
a really wierd consept.
but whatever, this is my dad's life, and i need to let him live it.
in other news, jordan is out, and brayden is in.
so that is it.
i will update later when mirae isnt reading this.
bi!!!

big news!!!

hey yall.
so big news. my dad proposed.
thursday night. my dad and his girlfriend are engaged.
[big shocker] i dont exactly know how i feel about that at
the moment, but i think im doing ok with it. i just strongly dislike
her two girls. emphasize on strongly. they drive to the point of madness.
they have already started calling MY dad, dad. im not going to lie. that hurts.
but my dad, being his usual self, doesnt give a rat's fart. but o well. what are you
going to do about it? all i can really do is sit here, and pretend that my life is normal. trying to avoid the enivatable stabbing pain that comes when i do think about it. so anyway, that is basically it. and oh ya, my birthday was exactly a week from yesterday!!! yay me!!! so
that is all from me!
love yall
love/Mikelle

hey guys!!!
it's mikelle [suprize]
ya. things have definatly simmered down a lot.
my book is going well [but long]
and my family is doing better. p.s. if i know you,
PLEASE DONT TELL ANYONE ONE ABOUT MY LAST COMMENT!!!
apperently i wasnt supposed to say that.
OOPS!
so anyway, things are going good, and my birthday is
in less than 2 weeks!!!
i really like this one guy named "jordan" and
"TJ" is being wierd.
mirae is doing fantabulous, and had DEFINATLY had
an amazing impact upon her "friends" she is slowly
but surely turning back into the mirae, that i love.
my dad's girlfriend, is good, and her two girls
are just as annoying as usual. My mom is doing amazing
and is absolutly loving the single life. i cant wait for my birthday.
when i hit July !2 a whole new realm of life opens uplol.
well that is all i can think of to write! thanks for reading
*kiss kiss* love you all!
love/Mikelle

anger

hey all you dudes and dudetts. its mikelle here.
so things have been a little wierd around here. so that girl that my dad is dating, well they are getting pretty flippen serious, and it has been extremely wierd because she has been practically living here! well... let me explain, so my grandma usually whatches the sib's during the day. but last week, she went on a vacation, jess, [dad's girlfriend] whatched the sib's.aka siblings.
so on sunday, my dad brought me into his office, and told me that he is going ring shopping!!!
HE IS GOING TO PROPOSE!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIRMP!!!
my jaw dropped.
so because of this, he said that she is going to be whatching us during the day, so we can get used to her "motheringness"
nobody else in the world knows about this yet. all of the kids think that it is because dear old gram gram cant do it anymore.
it really pisses me off!
now dont get me wrong. i love jess. but i dont think im ready for this yet!!!
i mean, ever since he told me, i dont see them the same anymore. i see them, as my wierd stupid not-at-all put together family!!!
i dont even like her two daughters. of course i pretend to like them, but i really dont!
they are annoying stupid kids!!!
i hate living here! im so sick of being ignored.
yep.
while dad is off making out with jess, he doesnt even realize the damage he is causing to my little broken heart.
im just shoved aside like a broken lamp. and my friends are off having the time of there lives with there perfect little families.
it makes me furious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to be noticed!!! i want to be treated like his daughter. not just a burden. im not just a broken lamp!!!
why cant he get that.
i have had the hardest life, and he doesnt even care. he cares more about his stupid girlfriend, than his daughter that actually NEEDS his love, attention, and devotion.
he doesnt even care or even know how bad he is hurting me!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh.
those two stupid girls!!! i hate um!!! they are whiny, crying babies!!!
and as for jess, she is cool, but she is always around my stupid retarted father.
i want to move out!!!
if any of you have a place i can stay, please call!!! i just cant help but be angry!!!
i know that there isnt really anything to be angry about, but... just... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh!
everything is just crashing down on me, and i cant stop them from coming.

well anyway, on that happy note...
that is all from me for a while
love/mikelle

family

hey yall.
it's mikelle.
so nothing has really happend.
well sort of, so i was going to write this book. and it was going well, but then i realized that i didnt like the plot at all!!!
so i totally changed it. a whole lot. so now it is about something totally different. and i only have a pg. and 1/2 done, but it is coming, and im really excited!
and another thing, my dad and my dad's girlfriend. i havent talked much about her. her name is Jesslyn, and she is FLIPPEN AMAZING!!! and my dad and her, are getting pretty serious. headed for marriage serious. i dont have a problem with that at all. it is just i dont like her girls much. she has two little girls. they are cute, but they arent my sisters. at all. actually, they can be pretty annoying. im used to my mom being replaced my nannies, but not my sisters. i just dont really like them at all. that is the only problem i have with them getting married. but i love Jesslyn sooooooo much. she is the sweetest cutest person ever! i can talk to her about anything. she is like my best friend. she is entirly supportive. she is basically all my dad isnt, and more. i love her a ton.
my dad says that i wouldnt have to share a room with the two twirps,,,, but my dad never has been totally honest with me. actually, i really dont like my dad at all1
in fact, i hate him.
He never gets it. he is not the only one in this world. he thinks that everyone revolvs around him. he never pays attention to anybody else. especially me.
he hates that im like my mom. he hates that i remind him of her.
he just doesnt get it. with every glance, he doesnt give me, he is tearing out a piece of my heart. :(
He just thinks that i am an annoyance. and that is the worst way to break someones heart.
well that is all for now. thanx for reading.
love/Mikelle

Friends/party

hey yall
its belle. sorry i have written so much lately. lots has happend.
so lastnight was the party i was talking about.
first we walked from school to his house.
it was about an hour walk. but it was so beautiful. There was this beautiful little grove of tree's with a tiny clearing. we took the most amazing group pictures.
then we came to a little lake. with trees surrounding it, and benches and the whole cabootle. It was so beautiful!
Me, Keri [My bestest friend EVER!!! we call eachother sisters], and Mckenzie [the boy i like] were fantasizing about romantic scenes in thise places. THEY WERE ABSOLUTLY THE MOST ROMANTIC THINGS I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!
but it only made me sad, because i knew that Mckenzie, was imaginaing them, with Sydney [ my best friend, whom mckenzie likes]. so i was really sad.
but as usual i put on my mask and pretended to be happy.
so after that, we got to his house, and got in the swimming pool. It was so much fun. Except for Jordan. he has liked me FOREVER!!! well, actually, he has liked me AND my friend forever. see what happend, was, he liked keri first. but then, she didnt like him. so he liked me. but then i didnt like him anymore, so he went back to keri. then she broke it off, and he went back to me. by this time, i was pretty pissed off. He was only bouncing from me to keri! He even told me, as long as he had someone to hold, he was fine. SHALLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so he is a shallow retard, and i have banned him from hugs, dancing, etc.
he is making me soooooooo mad!!!
but anyway, he was being an idiot at the pool, and i avoided him the whole time.
But Mckenzie was being positivly, amazing!!!
But there was also Tj. i forgot to tell you about him.
so at the beginning of the year, we went out for a long time.
but after about 6 months, i broke it off. i didnt like him anymore. so then he went out with 5 of my other friends. after doing this he told me that he never actually stopped liking me. and he was just trying to repair the hole in his heart. [idiot]
but i didnt like him. but he just didnt be able to seem to grasp that concept.
so finally he went out with another girl.
then the day b4 the party, he told me that he liked me again. i told him that i didnt, but then he asked me out.
idiot!!!
so i told him, no.
but at the party, he kept hanging around me, and being really wierd.
so anyway, then we got out of the pool, and snacked and listend to music.
Tj just had to sit my me, and Mckenzie just had to sit somewhere else.
so after we were done eating, we all went down and played a game.
while we were doing so, i got to sit by mckenzie!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but Tj, was passing me a note sayings things like " i keep looking in your eyes. they are beautiful"
hello dude?!?!?!!? I DO NOT LIKE YOU!!! GET OVER IT!!!
so then, after we all left, we were gone for 5 mintues. and he called my friend.
and asked to talk to me!!!!
he said that he missed me and he was going crazy.
HELLO DUDE?!?!?! GET A GRIP!!!
but anyway, we drove away, and that was the last i saw mckenzie. until next year.
dang.
but anyway, that is my guy problem, and the party stuff.
sorry if you fell asleep. my life is pretty lame.
thanx for reading.
ttyl
love/Mikelle

Cousin

hey yall.
its mikelle.
so remember my double cousin i was talking about? well i went over to her house yesterday, to see if i could borrow her swim suit, and hang out. and when i got over there, she was all pissy! she told me that ALL of her friends were expelled that day.
doing who knows what. she told me that they were still her friends, and even though they did something wrong, she doesnt care. HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! wake up and smell the roses dear!!!
so then, her friend came over, they started talking about some pretty "uncomfortable" things!
i was shocked!!!
finally i got so sick of it, i left and told them i needed to babysit.
but just the fact that her "friends" got expelled, says a lot!
and then she goes and talks about stuff like that!
i mean, this is my cousin, my sister ok?
I thought i knew her. but i guess not.
7th grade and cheerleading have changed her a whole freaken lot. im just really worried that she wont stop. And im REALLY worried that her parents arent doing anything about this!
surely they can tell that she changed!
and if her parents dont do something soon, she might as well be expelled with her friends.
well that is all for now!
love you guys!
love/Mikelle

Tragic Love Life

hey guys.
o my gracious.
i have a lot to write about. i havent written in a few days, so things have pilled up. It is the end of the year and emotions are running high.
so first of all, i like Mckenzie. yes this is a boy. But my big problem, is he is still in love with my best friend. [shocker]
but it just tears apart my heart when i see him. knowing that he will never see me the way i see him. Keaton, [my friend] has told me to forget about him. he will only break my heart, she says. but i would break my own heart a thousand times over, if i meant i could spend 5 minutes with him. but luckily, i dont have to break my own heart, he does it for me.
second, my dad has always had a strict rule about hanging out with boys. until im old enough anyway,
but all my my friends, always have a huge end of the year party, and they invited me, but i knew i wasnt going to be able to go. so i asked my dad, in total doubt, and guess what he said,
HE SAID YES!!!!!
i have no clue why or what he was thinking but, he said yes, and that is all i care about!!!
so i have been living in sunshine the past day and half, knowing that i finally have some freedom in my tragic trapped life.
thirdly, Mckenzie, the guys i mentioned, i gave him a nick-name. FYI all of the guys that my friends and i like, have to have nick-names. so that we can talk about them in public and not raise suspicion.
so his nickname, is sunshine. perfectly fitting. He is light blonde hair and bright blue eyes. He always happy, and enthusiastic about everything.
so perfect name. right?
but the thing is, is that the girl he likes, my best friend, her name is sydney,
and they used to like eachother for a long time. but she doesnt like him anymore.
But i can see that they are totally perfect for eachother. They are both blonde and have short hair, they both are the msot happy people i know, and they both.......................... they just go together. ok?
so anyway, tragic story of my love life. not that i have one.
so that is all for now, tune in next time, to hear more of the popular blog site, "Problem Central" lol

Hey guys/ Mikelle

Welt, today was interesting.
Ok, not really.
But the love of my life talked to me which makes it interesting.
I am like dying here. But ive learned that if I honestly love him I need to be happy for him.
O geez i g2g!
Bye mikelle, and others,
xo,
courtney

Best friend

hey guys!!
i know i have written like a whole lot, i just have a lot on my mind right now.
lol
but anyway, my double cousin,,,,,,, in case your confused, yes it is double cousin. my cousins dad and my mom are brother and sister. my cousin's mom is my dad's sister. so brother and sister married brother and sister, any way,
my double cousin, she is like my sister, i love her to death, but she called today.
and we were going to go shopping, and she stood me up.
and i know it is stupid but, the thing is, she blew me off for a couple of her neighbors. and they are bratty sluts.
i am just really depressed because i love her with all of my broken heart.
we were like sister all of our lives. we were the Diva's in Dippers!!!
ok?
but then she went into Jr high, and she became a totally different person.
idk, im not steryotyping her, or anyone else for that matter, but she sort of got involved in the whole "cheerleader" thing.
She has friends that don't care about her at all, she is in love with a player who is nothing but hormones, and she doesnt care about me anymore. we were so tight, but now i'm only an afterthought.
i guess i'm just sad that i cant be a big part in her life anymore. She is the most drop dead beautiful girl that you have
ever seen and i guess that is sort of getting her into trouble. she has never done anything "bad" but the guys that like her,
have. so anyway, i'm just hurt that she ditched me for some superficial friends.
so anway, i g2g and do something else.
thanks for listening/Mikelle

My Grandpa

hey all you bloggers.
i just wanted to tell you all about my Guardian Angel.
his name is Brent Christensen. He is my grandfather.
He died last July.
It was one of the hardest things i have ever had to deal with.
Just like everyone else says.
you never fully aprecciate someone, until they are gone.
After a while i thought i was going to be ok.
But the last few weeks have been really wierd.
i cant seem to get him out of my head. I miss him so much!
My dad told me that the deceased can communicate with you from the other side.
that he still leads our family, just in another way.
and the thought keeps popping into my head, what i dont hear him?
or what if i'm not worthy enough to hear him?
i regret so much that i took advantage of the time i had with him.
i wish so much i could talk to him now, or that he was here.
Before he died, he put together two books of all of his poems and letters.
and lately i cant help but read them. i cry everytime i do though.
i found out that he wrote a poem to me. when i was Eight. he missed my baptism
and he wrote me a poem.
when i saw this, i broke down.
Just knowing that he actually thought about me and cared enough to write me poem
meant so much.
but i guess his poem writing frenzy, carried on down to me. because i wrote a poem at least everyday,
they arent very good, but i guess they make me feel closer to him. just thinking that we share the same interests
and wrote about some of the same things.
i wish with all of my heart that i could see him again.
i know i will, but i miss him.
sometimes, in my prayers, i ask Heavenly Father, if i can talk to my grandpa. so i wait a minute,
and i start talking to him. i think i works.
there hasnt been a moment in my life that i dont cry when i think about him.
During a concert at school, we sang one of his favorite songs.
i couldnt cry on stage, so i held it in.
but then just the other day, a group of about 7 or so, sang the same song.
i cried and cried.
i was sitting next to my best friend.
she took me out, and we i sat there crying my eyes out and confessing things like, i didnt get to say goodbye.
i miss him with all of my broken heart.
anyway of you that know how to help, please leave a comment,
well i have to go and clean my mom's house.
with all the love in the world/ Mikelle

boredom

hey guys!!!
i am at my mom's house right now.
totally boring.
all my mom does is take care of the other three children,
that i am only an afterthought.
everytime, i come and sit on the computer, doing nothing.
so today, while i was doing nothing, i found some beautiful nature pics, and want to show them to you.
they are soooo pretty!!!

Belle

hey all you bloggers out there.
is mikelle again.i just wanted to tell you all a little bit about myself.
first off, i love to sing. i am a huge singer. well not famous or anything. or even good.
but i love it.
second, i love the water. I would live in the water if i could.
water, to me, is an underwater world that holds so many mysteries,
that humans could NEVER discover all of them. never.
third, my life is always a downsloping rollar coaster. always.
things can be going pretty ok one minute, and the next im
sitting on my bed bawling my eyes out, wondering why
i am here.
fourth, i have the greatest friends in the history of ever.
they are amazing, and always there for me.
so that is me. sort of. there is still a lot more.
but its time to go eat food.
talk to you soon!
love/Mikelle

Courtney

Hey I'm Courtney. My life and Mikelles isn't a lot different. 

My parents are still happy together and all that. 

But ive got family problems too. My sister for one. She is 16. That in itself is a problem.

Agreed? 

She pretty much hates my family. And as soon as she can she'll be outta here. 

My brother, I am so so so close to him. Closer than I am to my parents, and 

Im a total daddys girl. Anyways, he left to go on his misson for my church just 2 days ago. It was really hard.

I mean I don't like to talk to anone but him. 

It seems empty.

My social life.... um sucks. Yea, so I guess you already know my guy problems. 

I have this friend tho. We got into a huge fight and its ruined our friendship.

Which has completly changed my life.

I'm trying to handle all this stuff coming at me. A broken heart, a broken freindship, and a family that doesn't seem to be working out as well as it used to be. 

But thats my life. And I geuss you learn to deal.

Mikelle

hey all you bloggers!

its Mikelle here.

so let me start at the beginning of my life. 

first, i was born. into a wonderful family. two parents 

and me. just me.

then my sister came into my life.

as soon as my next brother came in, 

life started on the down part of the rollar coaster.

my mom got sick.

not just flu sick. but seriously sick.

the doctors had no clue what was wrong with her. as soon as it became apperant

my mom couldnt take care of us anymore, we hired a nanny.

then she quit.

then we hired another one.

she quit to.

then we hired 3 more. they all quit.

my life now, 

we have had more than 14 nannies.

all of which,

have quit. suprize!

so i have a little sister, and two little brothers.

my mom has been sick basically my whole life, and i have had to run the family.

my dad works from home and it has really worked out.

but the the divorse happened.

my parents could never be in the same room together, so it was a good thing. i guess.

but now my mom lives alone, and we go over everyother weekend.

she is doing well and is enjoying the single life.

my father however,

is not.

he hated being single. so he ran off and started dating

one of my old nannies!!!

ewwwww!!!

she is great and everything, but they are getting pretty serious.

i used to hate the fact that my dad loved another woman. but now, im pretty ok with it.

but she is over allllll the time. and i miss the way my family used to be.

but im glad my dad is happy. idk. i guess im just sort of torn. 

but anyway, that is my past and my life up until now.

thanks for reading!

love/Mikelle aka Belle

Nort and Belle

we are Courtney and Mikelle.

I'm Courtney, I've got issues, so does Mikelle. Guys aren't really our thing. Not at all.  See, I like this guy, andhe told me that he liked me to. But that he had to decide between me and his ex girlfriend. Then, without telling me, he got back together with her. I was so mad, And broken hearted. I don't know whether to talk to him or not.

I'm Mikelle, I've liked a few guys, but its so all confusing. See, in my group of friends, everybody likes eachother. But the guy I like really likes one of my best friends. What am I supposed to do right? I'm broken hearted as well.

I'm Courtney, and I'm Mikelle. Welcome to our Lives.