hey all you dudes and dudetts. its mikelle here.
so things have been a little wierd around here. so that girl that my dad is dating, well they are getting pretty flippen serious, and it has been extremely wierd because she has been practically living here! well... let me explain, so my grandma usually whatches the sib's during the day. but last week, she went on a vacation, jess, [dad's girlfriend] whatched the sib's.aka siblings.
so on sunday, my dad brought me into his office, and told me that he is going ring shopping!!!
HE IS GOING TO PROPOSE!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIRMP!!!
my jaw dropped.
so because of this, he said that she is going to be whatching us during the day, so we can get used to her "motheringness"
nobody else in the world knows about this yet. all of the kids think that it is because dear old gram gram cant do it anymore.
it really pisses me off!
now dont get me wrong. i love jess. but i dont think im ready for this yet!!!
i mean, ever since he told me, i dont see them the same anymore. i see them, as my wierd stupid not-at-all put together family!!!
i dont even like her two daughters. of course i pretend to like them, but i really dont!
they are annoying stupid kids!!!
i hate living here! im so sick of being ignored.
yep.
while dad is off making out with jess, he doesnt even realize the damage he is causing to my little broken heart.
im just shoved aside like a broken lamp. and my friends are off having the time of there lives with there perfect little families.
it makes me furious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to be noticed!!! i want to be treated like his daughter. not just a burden. im not just a broken lamp!!!
why cant he get that.
i have had the hardest life, and he doesnt even care. he cares more about his stupid girlfriend, than his daughter that actually NEEDS his love, attention, and devotion.
he doesnt even care or even know how bad he is hurting me!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh.
those two stupid girls!!! i hate um!!! they are whiny, crying babies!!!
and as for jess, she is cool, but she is always around my stupid retarted father.
i want to move out!!!
if any of you have a place i can stay, please call!!! i just cant help but be angry!!!
i know that there isnt really anything to be angry about, but... just... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh!
everything is just crashing down on me, and i cant stop them from coming.
well anyway, on that happy note...
that is all from me for a while
love/mikelle
Monday, June 9
Tuesday, June 3
family
hey yall.
it's mikelle.
so nothing has really happend.
well sort of, so i was going to write this book. and it was going well, but then i realized that i didnt like the plot at all!!!
so i totally changed it. a whole lot. so now it is about something totally different. and i only have a pg. and 1/2 done, but it is coming, and im really excited!
and another thing, my dad and my dad's girlfriend. i havent talked much about her. her name is Jesslyn, and she is FLIPPEN AMAZING!!! and my dad and her, are getting pretty serious. headed for marriage serious. i dont have a problem with that at all. it is just i dont like her girls much. she has two little girls. they are cute, but they arent my sisters. at all. actually, they can be pretty annoying. im used to my mom being replaced my nannies, but not my sisters. i just dont really like them at all. that is the only problem i have with them getting married. but i love Jesslyn sooooooo much. she is the sweetest cutest person ever! i can talk to her about anything. she is like my best friend. she is entirly supportive. she is basically all my dad isnt, and more. i love her a ton.
my dad says that i wouldnt have to share a room with the two twirps,,,, but my dad never has been totally honest with me. actually, i really dont like my dad at all1
in fact, i hate him.
He never gets it. he is not the only one in this world. he thinks that everyone revolvs around him. he never pays attention to anybody else. especially me.
he hates that im like my mom. he hates that i remind him of her.
he just doesnt get it. with every glance, he doesnt give me, he is tearing out a piece of my heart. :(
He just thinks that i am an annoyance. and that is the worst way to break someones heart.
well that is all for now. thanx for reading.
love/Mikelle
it's mikelle.
so nothing has really happend.
well sort of, so i was going to write this book. and it was going well, but then i realized that i didnt like the plot at all!!!
so i totally changed it. a whole lot. so now it is about something totally different. and i only have a pg. and 1/2 done, but it is coming, and im really excited!
and another thing, my dad and my dad's girlfriend. i havent talked much about her. her name is Jesslyn, and she is FLIPPEN AMAZING!!! and my dad and her, are getting pretty serious. headed for marriage serious. i dont have a problem with that at all. it is just i dont like her girls much. she has two little girls. they are cute, but they arent my sisters. at all. actually, they can be pretty annoying. im used to my mom being replaced my nannies, but not my sisters. i just dont really like them at all. that is the only problem i have with them getting married. but i love Jesslyn sooooooo much. she is the sweetest cutest person ever! i can talk to her about anything. she is like my best friend. she is entirly supportive. she is basically all my dad isnt, and more. i love her a ton.
my dad says that i wouldnt have to share a room with the two twirps,,,, but my dad never has been totally honest with me. actually, i really dont like my dad at all1
in fact, i hate him.
He never gets it. he is not the only one in this world. he thinks that everyone revolvs around him. he never pays attention to anybody else. especially me.
he hates that im like my mom. he hates that i remind him of her.
he just doesnt get it. with every glance, he doesnt give me, he is tearing out a piece of my heart. :(
He just thinks that i am an annoyance. and that is the worst way to break someones heart.
well that is all for now. thanx for reading.
love/Mikelle
Saturday, May 31
Friends/party
hey yall
its belle. sorry i have written so much lately. lots has happend.
so lastnight was the party i was talking about.
first we walked from school to his house.
it was about an hour walk. but it was so beautiful. There was this beautiful little grove of tree's with a tiny clearing. we took the most amazing group pictures.
then we came to a little lake. with trees surrounding it, and benches and the whole cabootle. It was so beautiful!
Me, Keri [My bestest friend EVER!!! we call eachother sisters], and Mckenzie [the boy i like] were fantasizing about romantic scenes in thise places. THEY WERE ABSOLUTLY THE MOST ROMANTIC THINGS I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!
but it only made me sad, because i knew that Mckenzie, was imaginaing them, with Sydney [ my best friend, whom mckenzie likes]. so i was really sad.
but as usual i put on my mask and pretended to be happy.
so after that, we got to his house, and got in the swimming pool. It was so much fun. Except for Jordan. he has liked me FOREVER!!! well, actually, he has liked me AND my friend forever. see what happend, was, he liked keri first. but then, she didnt like him. so he liked me. but then i didnt like him anymore, so he went back to keri. then she broke it off, and he went back to me. by this time, i was pretty pissed off. He was only bouncing from me to keri! He even told me, as long as he had someone to hold, he was fine. SHALLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so he is a shallow retard, and i have banned him from hugs, dancing, etc.
he is making me soooooooo mad!!!
but anyway, he was being an idiot at the pool, and i avoided him the whole time.
But Mckenzie was being positivly, amazing!!!
But there was also Tj. i forgot to tell you about him.
so at the beginning of the year, we went out for a long time.
but after about 6 months, i broke it off. i didnt like him anymore. so then he went out with 5 of my other friends. after doing this he told me that he never actually stopped liking me. and he was just trying to repair the hole in his heart. [idiot]
but i didnt like him. but he just didnt be able to seem to grasp that concept.
so finally he went out with another girl.
then the day b4 the party, he told me that he liked me again. i told him that i didnt, but then he asked me out.
idiot!!!
so i told him, no.
but at the party, he kept hanging around me, and being really wierd.
so anyway, then we got out of the pool, and snacked and listend to music.
Tj just had to sit my me, and Mckenzie just had to sit somewhere else.
so after we were done eating, we all went down and played a game.
while we were doing so, i got to sit by mckenzie!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but Tj, was passing me a note sayings things like " i keep looking in your eyes. they are beautiful"
hello dude?!?!?!!? I DO NOT LIKE YOU!!! GET OVER IT!!!
so then, after we all left, we were gone for 5 mintues. and he called my friend.
and asked to talk to me!!!!
he said that he missed me and he was going crazy.
HELLO DUDE?!?!?! GET A GRIP!!!
but anyway, we drove away, and that was the last i saw mckenzie. until next year.
dang.
but anyway, that is my guy problem, and the party stuff.
sorry if you fell asleep. my life is pretty lame.
thanx for reading.
ttyl
love/Mikelle
its belle. sorry i have written so much lately. lots has happend.
so lastnight was the party i was talking about.
first we walked from school to his house.
it was about an hour walk. but it was so beautiful. There was this beautiful little grove of tree's with a tiny clearing. we took the most amazing group pictures.
then we came to a little lake. with trees surrounding it, and benches and the whole cabootle. It was so beautiful!
Me, Keri [My bestest friend EVER!!! we call eachother sisters], and Mckenzie [the boy i like] were fantasizing about romantic scenes in thise places. THEY WERE ABSOLUTLY THE MOST ROMANTIC THINGS I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!
but it only made me sad, because i knew that Mckenzie, was imaginaing them, with Sydney [ my best friend, whom mckenzie likes]. so i was really sad.
but as usual i put on my mask and pretended to be happy.
so after that, we got to his house, and got in the swimming pool. It was so much fun. Except for Jordan. he has liked me FOREVER!!! well, actually, he has liked me AND my friend forever. see what happend, was, he liked keri first. but then, she didnt like him. so he liked me. but then i didnt like him anymore, so he went back to keri. then she broke it off, and he went back to me. by this time, i was pretty pissed off. He was only bouncing from me to keri! He even told me, as long as he had someone to hold, he was fine. SHALLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so he is a shallow retard, and i have banned him from hugs, dancing, etc.
he is making me soooooooo mad!!!
but anyway, he was being an idiot at the pool, and i avoided him the whole time.
But Mckenzie was being positivly, amazing!!!
But there was also Tj. i forgot to tell you about him.
so at the beginning of the year, we went out for a long time.
but after about 6 months, i broke it off. i didnt like him anymore. so then he went out with 5 of my other friends. after doing this he told me that he never actually stopped liking me. and he was just trying to repair the hole in his heart. [idiot]
but i didnt like him. but he just didnt be able to seem to grasp that concept.
so finally he went out with another girl.
then the day b4 the party, he told me that he liked me again. i told him that i didnt, but then he asked me out.
idiot!!!
so i told him, no.
but at the party, he kept hanging around me, and being really wierd.
so anyway, then we got out of the pool, and snacked and listend to music.
Tj just had to sit my me, and Mckenzie just had to sit somewhere else.
so after we were done eating, we all went down and played a game.
while we were doing so, i got to sit by mckenzie!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but Tj, was passing me a note sayings things like " i keep looking in your eyes. they are beautiful"
hello dude?!?!?!!? I DO NOT LIKE YOU!!! GET OVER IT!!!
so then, after we all left, we were gone for 5 mintues. and he called my friend.
and asked to talk to me!!!!
he said that he missed me and he was going crazy.
HELLO DUDE?!?!?! GET A GRIP!!!
but anyway, we drove away, and that was the last i saw mckenzie. until next year.
dang.
but anyway, that is my guy problem, and the party stuff.
sorry if you fell asleep. my life is pretty lame.
thanx for reading.
ttyl
love/Mikelle
Friday, May 30
Cousin
hey yall.
its mikelle.
so remember my double cousin i was talking about? well i went over to her house yesterday, to see if i could borrow her swim suit, and hang out. and when i got over there, she was all pissy! she told me that ALL of her friends were expelled that day.
doing who knows what. she told me that they were still her friends, and even though they did something wrong, she doesnt care. HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! wake up and smell the roses dear!!!
so then, her friend came over, they started talking about some pretty "uncomfortable" things!
i was shocked!!!
finally i got so sick of it, i left and told them i needed to babysit.
but just the fact that her "friends" got expelled, says a lot!
and then she goes and talks about stuff like that!
i mean, this is my cousin, my sister ok?
I thought i knew her. but i guess not.
7th grade and cheerleading have changed her a whole freaken lot. im just really worried that she wont stop. And im REALLY worried that her parents arent doing anything about this!
surely they can tell that she changed!
and if her parents dont do something soon, she might as well be expelled with her friends.
well that is all for now!
love you guys!
love/Mikelle
its mikelle.
so remember my double cousin i was talking about? well i went over to her house yesterday, to see if i could borrow her swim suit, and hang out. and when i got over there, she was all pissy! she told me that ALL of her friends were expelled that day.
doing who knows what. she told me that they were still her friends, and even though they did something wrong, she doesnt care. HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! wake up and smell the roses dear!!!
so then, her friend came over, they started talking about some pretty "uncomfortable" things!
i was shocked!!!
finally i got so sick of it, i left and told them i needed to babysit.
but just the fact that her "friends" got expelled, says a lot!
and then she goes and talks about stuff like that!
i mean, this is my cousin, my sister ok?
I thought i knew her. but i guess not.
7th grade and cheerleading have changed her a whole freaken lot. im just really worried that she wont stop. And im REALLY worried that her parents arent doing anything about this!
surely they can tell that she changed!
and if her parents dont do something soon, she might as well be expelled with her friends.
well that is all for now!
love you guys!
love/Mikelle
Thursday, May 29
Tragic Love Life
hey guys.
o my gracious.
i have a lot to write about. i havent written in a few days, so things have pilled up. It is the end of the year and emotions are running high.
so first of all, i like Mckenzie. yes this is a boy. But my big problem, is he is still in love with my best friend. [shocker]
but it just tears apart my heart when i see him. knowing that he will never see me the way i see him. Keaton, [my friend] has told me to forget about him. he will only break my heart, she says. but i would break my own heart a thousand times over, if i meant i could spend 5 minutes with him. but luckily, i dont have to break my own heart, he does it for me.
second, my dad has always had a strict rule about hanging out with boys. until im old enough anyway,
but all my my friends, always have a huge end of the year party, and they invited me, but i knew i wasnt going to be able to go. so i asked my dad, in total doubt, and guess what he said,
HE SAID YES!!!!!
i have no clue why or what he was thinking but, he said yes, and that is all i care about!!!
so i have been living in sunshine the past day and half, knowing that i finally have some freedom in my tragic trapped life.
thirdly, Mckenzie, the guys i mentioned, i gave him a nick-name. FYI all of the guys that my friends and i like, have to have nick-names. so that we can talk about them in public and not raise suspicion.
so his nickname, is sunshine. perfectly fitting. He is light blonde hair and bright blue eyes. He always happy, and enthusiastic about everything.
so perfect name. right?
but the thing is, is that the girl he likes, my best friend, her name is sydney,
and they used to like eachother for a long time. but she doesnt like him anymore.
But i can see that they are totally perfect for eachother. They are both blonde and have short hair, they both are the msot happy people i know, and they both.......................... they just go together. ok?
so anyway, tragic story of my love life. not that i have one.
so that is all for now, tune in next time, to hear more of the popular blog site, "Problem Central" lol
o my gracious.
i have a lot to write about. i havent written in a few days, so things have pilled up. It is the end of the year and emotions are running high.
so first of all, i like Mckenzie. yes this is a boy. But my big problem, is he is still in love with my best friend. [shocker]
but it just tears apart my heart when i see him. knowing that he will never see me the way i see him. Keaton, [my friend] has told me to forget about him. he will only break my heart, she says. but i would break my own heart a thousand times over, if i meant i could spend 5 minutes with him. but luckily, i dont have to break my own heart, he does it for me.
second, my dad has always had a strict rule about hanging out with boys. until im old enough anyway,
but all my my friends, always have a huge end of the year party, and they invited me, but i knew i wasnt going to be able to go. so i asked my dad, in total doubt, and guess what he said,
HE SAID YES!!!!!
i have no clue why or what he was thinking but, he said yes, and that is all i care about!!!
so i have been living in sunshine the past day and half, knowing that i finally have some freedom in my tragic trapped life.
thirdly, Mckenzie, the guys i mentioned, i gave him a nick-name. FYI all of the guys that my friends and i like, have to have nick-names. so that we can talk about them in public and not raise suspicion.
so his nickname, is sunshine. perfectly fitting. He is light blonde hair and bright blue eyes. He always happy, and enthusiastic about everything.
so perfect name. right?
but the thing is, is that the girl he likes, my best friend, her name is sydney,
and they used to like eachother for a long time. but she doesnt like him anymore.
But i can see that they are totally perfect for eachother. They are both blonde and have short hair, they both are the msot happy people i know, and they both.......................... they just go together. ok?
so anyway, tragic story of my love life. not that i have one.
so that is all for now, tune in next time, to hear more of the popular blog site, "Problem Central" lol
Sunday, May 25
Hey guys/ Mikelle
Welt, today was interesting.
Ok, not really.
But the love of my life talked to me which makes it interesting.
I am like dying here. But ive learned that if I honestly love him I need to be happy for him.
O geez i g2g!
Bye mikelle, and others,
xo,
courtney
Ok, not really.
But the love of my life talked to me which makes it interesting.
I am like dying here. But ive learned that if I honestly love him I need to be happy for him.
O geez i g2g!
Bye mikelle, and others,
xo,
courtney
Saturday, May 24
Best friend
hey guys!!
i know i have written like a whole lot, i just have a lot on my mind right now.
lol
but anyway, my double cousin,,,,,,, in case your confused, yes it is double cousin. my cousins dad and my mom are brother and sister. my cousin's mom is my dad's sister. so brother and sister married brother and sister, any way,
my double cousin, she is like my sister, i love her to death, but she called today.
and we were going to go shopping, and she stood me up.
and i know it is stupid but, the thing is, she blew me off for a couple of her neighbors. and they are bratty sluts.
i am just really depressed because i love her with all of my broken heart.
we were like sister all of our lives. we were the Diva's in Dippers!!!
ok?
but then she went into Jr high, and she became a totally different person.
idk, im not steryotyping her, or anyone else for that matter, but she sort of got involved in the whole "cheerleader" thing.
She has friends that don't care about her at all, she is in love with a player who is nothing but hormones, and she doesnt care about me anymore. we were so tight, but now i'm only an afterthought.
i guess i'm just sad that i cant be a big part in her life anymore. She is the most drop dead beautiful girl that you have
ever seen and i guess that is sort of getting her into trouble. she has never done anything "bad" but the guys that like her,
have. so anyway, i'm just hurt that she ditched me for some superficial friends.
so anway, i g2g and do something else.
thanks for listening/Mikelle
i know i have written like a whole lot, i just have a lot on my mind right now.
lol
but anyway, my double cousin,,,,,,, in case your confused, yes it is double cousin. my cousins dad and my mom are brother and sister. my cousin's mom is my dad's sister. so brother and sister married brother and sister, any way,
my double cousin, she is like my sister, i love her to death, but she called today.
and we were going to go shopping, and she stood me up.
and i know it is stupid but, the thing is, she blew me off for a couple of her neighbors. and they are bratty sluts.
i am just really depressed because i love her with all of my broken heart.
we were like sister all of our lives. we were the Diva's in Dippers!!!
ok?
but then she went into Jr high, and she became a totally different person.
idk, im not steryotyping her, or anyone else for that matter, but she sort of got involved in the whole "cheerleader" thing.
She has friends that don't care about her at all, she is in love with a player who is nothing but hormones, and she doesnt care about me anymore. we were so tight, but now i'm only an afterthought.
i guess i'm just sad that i cant be a big part in her life anymore. She is the most drop dead beautiful girl that you have
ever seen and i guess that is sort of getting her into trouble. she has never done anything "bad" but the guys that like her,
have. so anyway, i'm just hurt that she ditched me for some superficial friends.
so anway, i g2g and do something else.
thanks for listening/Mikelle
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